It's always nice in the end of December to remember the old values like family and close friends, parts of our lives we decide to ignore more or less in favour of career once in a while.
This year my plan is to visit my grandparents. I haven't seen them for 5 years. I'm scared a bit. I mean they have to be older (that's for sure) but that's not the problem. I'm afraid of the aging process. Like every gay guy i guess. Not only that. I'm scared because they're ill, they might die... Sometimes I feel like it would be better to not have any close persons. That way you wont suffer the lost.
The Winter do that trick to me, I get depressed and melancholic. This year supposed to be different. It is NOT. What does this mean? Some things never change...
I'm always amused by people's excitement about the Holidays. I mean why are they so excited? For me, honestly, it's just a few days off. Nice time spent at home where's not cold. I don't have to work, I don't have to do anything, I can just relax and enjoy myself. On the other hand there are those people going around like crazy, buying stuffs they'll never need, drinking lots of alcohol, red noses and cheeks and everything. Am I missing something. Where's this X-mas spirit? Where's the excitement? And why am I going to work on 31 of December? Fuck!